Roleplaying

Those that know me and those that might not know me all that well one thing I love is to RP.  I love to write and meet new people and just have fun escaping my reality for awhile and live some other life.  Do I take it to seriously, hell yeah, but that is just me, I take everything in my life to seriously.  Am I too sensitive over things?  You betcha, again it is who I am irl and in rp land.  I could apologize till I can’t type or talk for either of those things, but it would still happen.  

Next thing, I suffer from severe depression and am bi polar, most days medication takes care of that and I’m on an even keel, but there are times when I run out of meds or I forget to take them for a couple of days in a row and my moods are worse than a twisty turny rollercoaster.  That is what is happening today.  I am uber sensitive and over reacting to anything and everything.  BUT, as I said in my rant, or one of them, I am a real person behind this monitor and keyboard.  I have feelings that get hurt.  I am like any other human being whether they admit to it or not, I don’t like to feel like I am being ignored, slighted, and the like.  Especially from someone that I like and enjoy chatting and rping with.  I also realize that there are people that are uber popular and have a lot of people that like to chat with them, I understand that, but when it gets to every time I say something or dms are ignored, I think it is something beyond just being busy.  Like I also said, you don’t want to talk to me, answer my dm and tell me you are to busy, I’m more likely to be less hurt by that than to be ignored.

Another thing, this isn’t just for my HP acct but for any of my accts. if you don’t want to rp with me, then tell me no to it.  Same as above, it will hurt me less telling me up front you aren’t interested than leave me hanging, go offline or change your mind on having a relationship with one of my chars.  On one of my other accts not once, not twice, not three, but four times I had two people start rping with me, then leave me hanging to rp with someone they deemed better than me and the other said lets role play and next thing I know TWICE they have to go offline or just go offline.  I am a damn good rper.  I have been rping for 15 years.  I maybe new to the twitter rp style, but not from rping.  I am the type that will bend over backwards to make rping/storylines work. I’m not hard to work with if given a chance.  Am I moody? Am I emo?  yeah sometimes, like today, but other than that i am a very dedicated rper and a person that is a very loyal friend, always willing to help anyone that might need a shoulder, an ear or whatever.

Am I annoying?  Yeah, I can be when I am wanting attention, but tell me who isn’t.  Especially females, but men as well can be needy.  Do I mean to be annoying?  NO, I don’t mean to be.  I like to have fun and join in on fun.  I like to talk about things in dms at times for rp purposes and the like.  I don’t want anyone but my irl hubby’s attention 24/7 but I don’t like to be totally ignored either.  Just bare with me when I’m having my days.  I usually try to keep away from being online when I’m having these kind of days, but then again it tends to be the time when I need to rp the most, ironic isn’t it.  Anyways, I thought I needed to do some ‘splaining on my behaviour today.  Thank you to those that read this, please comment or let me know in dms or TL if you have read it, would mean a lot to me.  Thank you